Joana, I understand where you are coming from, coming from a similar place myself.

Mental illness is so very hard to manage, to cope with, to overcome.

Everyone gets it if you break something, or cut something, but just don't bother trying to be depressed, anxious, ADDH, Manic Depressive, OCD, etc - any of those will get you no help, a lot of criticism and bad attitude from people.

Eventually I stopped taking the drugs because of the side effects. Even without them, I think finally after 60 years, I cope a little better. I never knew what my problem was until my mid twenties. I learned it runs in my family. (Oh, great!)

I wish I could offer you some wonderful, earth shattering helpful words, that would make you feel better. I cannot. All I can offer is my support and friendship, and Reiki.