This is great, Kate.
Good to share your struggles with trying to back off from a habit.
Any habit formed is always difficult to break, especially something that involves repetetive physical actions. But I can see where the cannabis habit would be tricky because also provides some relief from pain and stress..
It never became a habit with me, even though I was around stoners all the time. the problem for me was and is that I am a control freak, so cannot "let go" a complete waste of a perfectly good doobie.